BEEN A LONG TIME COMING
So my dear LJ readers, all 0 of you, how you be? how you be?

THINGS ARE GREAT here in Oregon, and when I say great, I mean it's like I'm living with a great big giant smile that masks the deep and unforgiving self that I am! That sounds pretty deep, which is exactly what I just said I was.

Honestly though, being here is like living a different person's life. Doing anything actually feels that way. I'm dating someone. I don't like talking about it. I'm not ashamed but I am shy. I'm not exactly romantic, I try to be exciting and full of sexual prowess, but at the end of the day I'm not sure what I want.

I could write forever and come to no conclusions or spelling awards. This is pretty ridiculous.

What else; I miss old people. I think about all the people I've been close to and I miss some of them. Just the recent ones, actually. Within two years, just out of the high-school era. When I say close I don't meen people I dated, I mean all my pals. I miss em.

I made friends here, which is cool. We hang out and stuff.

I'll settle down in California when the time comes, must see the things to see first. I'm not sure what I want. I need to be less numb somehow, but I can't stop thinking and thinking when I should be doing.

well that ends that, I hope you enjoyed this small insight to my current state of affairs.